Letting Go

Tough week.

Saying goodbye to what I thought was my life’s dream and also my IDENITY was pretty tough for a girl that thought she had it all. She had a Pink Cadillac and nothing could stop her! Everyone noticed, everyone saw the ICONIC symbol of success. It gave her power, fame, fortune, and a false sense of security. It was my dream to become a National Sales Director to the Soul Sisters Area and I could see the finish line right in front of me. Sprinting.  Striving.  Sweating.  Stressing.   At the time, it all felt worth it to fulfill the mission I was on. (I was driving Cadillac’s in my dreams)

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My eyes were blinded and I thought I had it all figured out, but God had a much better plan that I wasn’t able to see with my clouded perception.  I can remember the very moment when my heart changed and I feared I would have to let my precious Soul Sisters down, but I also knew leading by example and living out what my heart was telling me was what I had to do to help change their lives as well. I had a lot of tough conversations but I also had some I will never forget. I loved my PINK CADILLAC but I loved my people more. It was an IDOL and it had to come down.

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Victorious Week.

As I sold my Pink Cadillac and the new owner drove away, even my youngest daughter was in turmoil. She asked us, “Momma, how are people going to know your still a Soul Sister?” I then answered her, “Baby girl, your adorable but I will always be a Soul Sister,  Pink Cadillac or not.”  I realized at that moment that even my daughter had connected this piece of metal to my very Identity, what an ATROCITY. Thank God for his grace that allowed my blinders and clouded vision to be removed. After eight years finding my identity in driving a Pink Cadillac, and then letting it go…. ended up being my FREEDOM.

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Don’t you dare miss out on this video right here! Close your eyes and LET GO!

My Freedom Song: Trust in you by Lauren Daigle

Trust In You

Letting go of every single dream
I lay each one down at your feet
Every moment of my wandering
Never changes what you see
I try to win this war
I confess, my hands are weary, I need your rest
Mighty warrior, king of the fight
No matter what I face you’re by my side

When you don’t move the mountains
I’m needing you to move
When you don’t part the waters
I wish I could walk through
When you don’t give the answers
As I cry out to you
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in you

Truth is you know what tomorrow brings
There’s not a day ahead you have not seen
So let all things be my life and breath
I want what you want Lord and nothing less

 

 

6 thoughts on “Letting Go

  1. ldibble says:

    I was shocked to see it go. I hurt for you not to have it. It signified success and hard work. Very hard work. But you can buy what you want now. And a car does not really mean anything. It is a tool you use. It is not who you are. To love it and worship it is indeed idolatry. Thanks for sharing. We love you.

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  2. Michele Krycinski says:

    WOW, this really touched my heart! All those long hours and your hard work … I often wondered how you ever did it!! But I know you grew tremendously during those years, and I grew too with my grandkids, and you are now able to move in directions you may have never thought about before! So proud of you for taking such a Giant Step and listening to the Lord!

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  3. Savvy lowe says:

    I love this and you. You sure are a one of a kind women! Pink Cadillac or not no one can take away who you are on the inside!!!
    Congratulations on letting go and starting new beginnings 💕

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